i always want to blog at times whem im happy or sad, but the irritating part is when i actually get to a computer i have already forgotten what i mwas sad or happy about. having a faulty memory sucks big time.

but what i do remember is feeling really bad this morning because i saw another beggar that i want to help but i dont know how, if you give them money they get used to it and ask for more money, if you dont give them money they just stay there looking like zombies who has no path nor direction! i feel really frustrated especially when its a very old lady and a very young kid, i mean where are their parents, their children those ages are really sensitive and fragile, i mean old people shouldnt be on the street, they should be inside houses drinking tea, life is hard and they have been through most of it, i think that deserves a little more credit! and what about the children, they get sick, and run down by cars doesnt anybody care???? i dunno, i want to help, maybe its a foolish drean, agggh....

well in my life things are awful, im flunking chem, most probably flunked artcomp big exam! about 4-5 papers to write, finals, org stress (juniors is this sat and i havent been traing due to unfortunate circumstances), malate (i dont even know whats going to happen there)...dag nabbit!

she told the story ... 6:39 PM

my oppa-byakuya...hehe libre managinip!

it is now official i am back to being an anime addict, i just cant help it anymore i just have to watch right now im obsessed with bleach ... haha such fun, it can be frustrating though, sigh...why cant i have magical mystical powers...with the gling gling gling like they have...

i saw a fellow moser today hans...hes looking good i must say....

haha the stress is getting to me, i have to write several papers haha one in engltwo, one in theoper, hmmn and oodles of other stuff that are depressing therefore do not want to think about it!!!

she told the story ... 6:37 PM

why is always complicated when enrollment comes along, i dont get it, im an advance enrolee yet i have oodles of problems, i dunno whats going to happen next term all of my subjects are majors with two labs, one organic chemistry and the other integrated physics, plus im terminal in two subjects, theoper, and chem1 i know its pretty stupid to fail it but i just dont know how too do it. its like fencing no matter how hard i try i just dont seem to be improving.

i have really hit bum days, hehe on a brighter note i try not to wallow in self peity.. sigh...

must think positive.

she told the story ... 8:12 PM

well i did cut class to wath the tibetan monk spek for the first time ever in pholippine history....he was very young like 23 and i was really shocked he had a nice voice and he spoke very good english...mainly his speech was simple, he explained that we humans have accumulated karma over all our reincarnated lives, some good and some bad. we have poison in our system that is fed by our bad karma, but with is is the potential to be an absolute human being because we also have good karma, and that all humans have a united goal and that is to exist in peace. he also pressed on that we should not waste our lives but instead value it, because we all have a purpose in this life.

sigh, well malate issue is out, we actually was supposed to have a meeting today but im flaking out, i suddenly dont want to attend, dont want to tambay, dont want to draw, dont want to do anything. i dunno maybe its just in my mood, i just hope i dont get kicked out or anything. sigh im still fencing frustrated i just dont seem to be improving, the exercise is great an all but my ego is really taking a beat!

sigh well try try until you succed right...

she told the story ... 5:50 AM

have you ever went to church and saw someone really handsome, the kind that has glitters and a gling gling sound...and they awfully seem familiar. i did he was sitting in front of me he looked like the guy in one of those samurai movies, and his the prince, the facial features are astounding. though the flaw is hes cuter side view then front view. hehe

he was with a family i think, they dont look alike i dunno if hes courting the teenage girl, or its his sister, cousin whatever...sigh hehe .... chirp chirp chirp

and another thing is my mums has a chat mate, and my mum sent him a drawing that i drew, and he printed it out on a tshirt it lookes do cool, and he wants to send 1 to me haha, maybe i have a future as a t-shirt designer...

aggh why is enrollment so damn hard, the good thing now is that im in advance enrollment, so cool horrah.... but the problem is first i might very well flunk chem,(knocks on wood) and thats going to bonk me in the head, i really hope i dont fail!!! aghh subjects are scrambled, i dunno the danm course codes and the comp just told me that it was closed (yes, kaka touch grabe lecat!!!)

i just really hope i can resolve it soon...

she told the story ... 6:52 PM

sigh well the exam hell week is now officialy over, all i have to do is wait to see how badly ive done... sigh i just really hope i dont fail anything, i might be up for advance enrollment but what if i flunk chem, damn in all tarnations!!!

another problem for me now is the junior fencing competition, i dont even want to join right now, my ego just took a huge wound now i want to re open it?! i know im not ready... i dunno... but our captain said that we aught to join if were really serious about fencing...

what do you people think i should do...

im wathing now an abnormally long old film called ben hur, three hours have passed and its still playing... people then really liked long movies!!!

she told the story ... 2:28 AM

NONCHALANCE

SORROW

ANGER

she told the story ... 8:12 PM

well ive had my bio exam and guess what it sucked like hell, it was the hardes bio exam i have ever taken, the pictures were all black and white so it was hell of a time trying to distinguish the arteries from the nerves, its like this 1. read the question (definition) 2.think of what its called 3.think of its number 4. look for the cranial number in the slide 5. check out the assigned number for the number....agggh too complicated, not to mention my chemistry skills is equivalent to that of air... what am i going to do...damn hell week!!!

she told the story ... 8:02 PM

god i want to scream ms excel is evil, i cant figure it out its like punching nails in my head, with all those formulas that doesnt work, man am i getting dumber by the minute??? because i honestly used to think i was smart, but now im just not so sure?! i dont know how to divide my body, exam tom biopsychology, exam thurs chemistry, midterm thurs artcomp, project thurs artcomp, and an exhibison tom.... agggh what is wrong with my schedule....

and next term physics plus chem...ahhhh i think my brain will explode... i feel so tired and depressed ... damn...wheres the chocolate????

she told the story ... 6:19 AM

yesterday and today i have been watching a tv series called huse and i really like it because it talks about medicine and im considering it as a future career, i know i can do it, im just wondering if i will be happy while doing it.... damn. sigh...

she told the story ... 10:27 PM

ive been sitting in our comp. section for a long time now, but then i remembered that i had something to blog about and it is about my embarasment in class coz i couldnt answer a simple chem question, i know its my fault for not listening .... and i dunno i get it when i do its just that shes so boring!!! and patrick is entertaining... i dunno, but i have decided that i will listen to her no matter how much coffee it takes!!! aja!

she told the story ... 8:29 PM

WALA LANG HAHA I JUST COMPILED MY PICS HAHA

she told the story ... 4:35 AM

well we went to the chinese cemetary, we had to walk and it was hot like hell but it was ok because i got to visit my grandfather... and my brother actually baught a green chick ...so its now living in our other room... right now sleeping.

ive recently joined deviant art and i like it, it caters to my ego when people say i draw well, it just irritates me that its slow sometimes... thats all.

she told the story ... 4:21 AM

i am a college student
i am fascinated with anything weird *not sick*
i like the color red
i like books
and i dont care what
the hell people do with their lives,
if their happt it works

~ art
~passion
~ determination
gaia online


~ i want a balloon.
~ fly to the moon.
~ become a loon.

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