the entire day yesterday there was a storm and a big blackout, it was very very hard, i cannot imagine how people in the 18th century (or whatever year without electricity) ... damn it was hot, dark and a little scary going down the stairs...

but thank god the lights are now back on and will and grace is there to cheer me up... its really creepy how many gay men there are.

sigh...

she told the story ... 12:08 AM

these days i have been really wondering about what i want to do with my life: ptions, become a surgeon (cardio, or neuro), work at an office, become a professor, completely waste all my science units and beome a graphic designer... i really dont know and i know that i have to decide soon, clinical or industrial...god erg...

sigh i feel really bad coz i changed 1 decimal point to get a 9/10. aggh am i a bad person (haha kababawan) this week is just so toxic for me...i have a quiz every friggin day. aggh. plus to add on i saw a deranged man getting tinkie on the garbage uncovered... aggh nightmare....

she told the story ... 6:50 AM

we had to do an experiment for our class . . .guess whose the guiney pig (pardon the spelling) anyway we had to poke him with toothpics, it was really funny, we kept on laughing. poke in the tongue, upper and lower lip, nose, cheek, forhead, neck, back chest, thigh, leg, forearm, upperarm, fingers...the best was the foot and toes... (thats the job for super keisha) haha. it was alot of fun.

sigh i dnt know what to do about malate, i love the org, and most of the people (especially fellow mosers and the art staff) i really do but the problem is i hate spending time at the office trying to communicate to the wall, everyone seems to have another wavelength than me, i dunno, maybe ill get kicked out (though i hope not). so now i dont know if i should go there or not, im just really uneasy. *sigh* what do i do will someone please give me advice.

she told the story ... 9:32 PM

aggh my head hurts, anyway its pretty annoying that i had to walk through an immense amount of flood just to get home its so blah... erg, i hate baha

she told the story ... 9:48 PM

first: i finally got to play an actual fencing game, i lost but hey it was my first time hehe, i wore the white jacket, the heavy metal helmet, with the wirings and the machine, the whole entalada... unfortunatly i got my shoulders tushed so now it hurts, good thing im not prone to dark bruises.

second: i finally got to go swimming its like a dream fullfilled, well, i couldnt swim more than 100 meters sucessively but, i got 18 mor laps crosswise straight, sigh the only problem was i didnt get to attend my malate meeting. seriously i think their going to kick me out soon or ill get demotion or something, i dunno.

sigh i just really hope everything works out.

she told the story ... 11:11 PM

this is the day after theoper class, i really liked it coz it focuses on humans and it really made me think, coz some are contradicting, do you believe that humans are 100 free to make their own decisions, or do you believe that others have to make those decisions for you. do you believe that the environment influences who you are today, or is it simply genetic?

but perhaps the most boggling question was about who you really want to be with. would you rather find someone who inspires you to live or someone that you would die for??? i dunno, personally i would rather have someone that i am willing to die for, live is very precious if im willing to give that up, then a pretty hard rock hit me in the head. kidding, that actually reminded me of a quote that was stenciled above a mortuary...

"in your loneliness, find something good enough to live for, great enough to die for"

she told the story ... 9:05 PM

http://s18.photobucket.com/albums/b139/winterpop/made%202006/ its an art link, go ahead if you want to check it out, well here i am in a small computershop and i seriously feel like im going to melt, what is with the heat today, its really aggravating!!!

anyway i missed everything yesterday, the training, my art meeting, hey i was broke plus i was really tired. .. im not about to lest i free day pass me by!!!

ive been watching project runway. i had a marathon up to 5 am in the morning, haha so im a little wozzy hurrah

she told the story ... 7:55 PM

i cant believe that 1 week has already passed, classes are now up and about which just means im going to have more frequent headaches... sigh i still have to do my malate residency erg...


and di pala ko foil sa fencing, it turns out im an epee (pronounced as epay) heavier sword really, but less complicated rules, no more right of way, as long as you hit any part of the body the point is yours. theres going to be a competiton on oct 28, i dunno if i should join???

sigh and bye...

she told the story ... 11:26 PM

first: earlier today when i was about to go to school i saw a sight that really shocked me... there she was an old woman, very old about 70-80 wearing a wedding gown on top of her clothes while carrying a ratty purse, i would assume that she is crazy, and i really felt deep sympathy, what would drive a woman like her to do that to herself, and why was no one taking care of her, doesnt anybody care anymore??? its hard to believe that after a person takes care of you, thay you can just throw him or her out into the curb. its just wrong.

second: a really cute guy, as in very very cute rode the same jip???(forgive me for the spelling) as i did, he was foreign i guess, he looked like a model, but theat really wasnt the weird part, his skin was really unique i guess, his upper arms looked like he caught all the freckles that the world has to offer, while his hands looked like it was burned, more like the white scars or balat as we have here in the phil. (is staring that rude when your staring at a guy???, coz i was staring and he kinda stared back) haha sayang bumaba na ko hahaha

anyway, apart from weird people. i got to touch, more like poke a brain today, several in fact, so now im sitting in our comp. lab reeking with the stench of formalin, and decaying brain. i wonder where they harvested it, imagine after all the work and effort a human puts in his life whether academic or social, you just end up there in a dish pan, as opposed to being eaten by worms, or ashen. doesnt just make you feel optimistic??? haha joke

ok im going to end it, its entirely too long. bye

she told the story ... 9:37 PM

aggh, my heAD hurts, im on my second day and all morning i kept on thinking that there is no way that school is starting again... why does summer have to breeze off so quickly...

well i did learn something considering ... i learned it yesterday, we were going to study the nerves in the brain, and my prof mentioned that teenagers act the way they do (immature, restless, rebellious, stupid, idiotic, and moronic) is because the portion of the brain that controlls these acts have not yet developed.... see the world has just been explained. see there is always a logical explanation for everything...

aggh i still cant believe we had chem lec. and actully had lecture...its the 2nd bloody day. how evil can you get??? i now have to think about thermochemistry, and i dont even want to think...

haha patrick looks like a polar bear, hannah looks like a mongoose, keisha looks like a koala, jeddy looks like a fish (bangus) red looks like a whale, i look like a cat hahaha

ive gone kuku clock in the head....hahahaha

she told the story ... 9:03 PM

well it has been a very long time and too much has been happening in my life, first is mos- i cant really tell every detail coz were not supposed to, but i really loved it, even though my hands looked ratty because of all the makahiya cuts, and the fact that i fell of a ditch, was rolled over by some people (literally speaking) and i carrided a whole lot of people, afterwards it really payed off because i know that ive become a stronger person because of it, and i was able to let go of some of the factors that i dislike in me. we had to read it out... anyway enough about that...

at home things are under a time bomb, the suspence is killing me and im torn in the middle, my mum and aunt are fighting, my aunt who took care of me as a child, who brought and fetched me from school ... i dunno i love my mum. and honestly i dont know whos right or wrong. its just making my head hurt alot.

damn i cant believe class has started, its awful. my head is turning acidic...toxic....

anyway thats it bye

she told the story ... 12:50 AM

well today turned out to be a very good day, we got to training, we did 100 launges (i am so proud) but my knees hurt like hell, the only inspiration the team captain could give us was that the philippine fencin team does the same training, and when we join uaap that ioo will become 200 (the horror, trust me 100 is enough to make your kness collapse if your not that used to it)

after training we went to meagamall (me, kathleen, and keish) we went ice skating, it was fun, though i landed on my bum several times (i feel ance again proud, i can skate adequately now!!!) haha i even forced the two to join me in the middle of the ice... we didnt have enough money afterwards to eat both lunch and dinner ...all we could afford was 10 peso doughnut.

tomorrow is going to be another good day, thank god always

bye

she told the story ... 7:49 AM

i am a college student
i am fascinated with anything weird *not sick*
i like the color red
i like books
and i dont care what
the hell people do with their lives,
if their happt it works

~ art
~passion
~ determination
gaia online


~ i want a balloon.
~ fly to the moon.
~ become a loon.

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