Spring Blossom, Autumn Sorrows

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

happy holloween people, today was a pretty good day, and i really needed it, because i just seem to shift from one crappy day to another. i feel good.... i really dnt know what else to sAY... i have nothing execept more horrible day reantings (for yesterday) and its really getting tired of it, wallowing in self peity wont really help me to accomplish anything. hahaha

well were going to th chinese cemetary tom, to visit grandpapa... thats my life as of now, dull but loving it.

she told the story ... 3:40 AM

Sunday, October 29, 2006

well its another official failing moment for me, i did not win! and almost all my teammates did, i really felt like such a looser earlier, but the one thing i can be proud about is that im not a sore looser, i still supported those who won, and cheered my best, i know that its my fault why i lost and i know that if i try harder i can get better. it just feels so frustrating that i dont have that natural fighting talent, whatever progress i get its not because its innately in me but because i have agression and i worked hard for it (or i just wanna hit alot of people)

i really felt bad, man... hay, well you win some you loose some right! sigh... thats life... on the bright side bernice won first!!! shes a friend and a good person im very happy for her! and i got some really good shots....

she told the story ... 1:51 AM

Friday, October 27, 2006

yesterday was not a very good night for me, well for one, i slipped off the stairs and ripped my pants, can you imagine my horror when i realized it i had already crossed the room with alot of people .... so there i was covering my hinie.... then the night progressed i didnt win a single game, my coach forced me to play against ust, coz no othe epee was present, they were all late. so there i was standing there like an idiot, asking them if i could play with them. sigh, then i played with the veterans yas i got tushed under my arms again so now i have bruising, underarm, upper arm, lower arm, upper thigh, knee. i feel so frustrated that i always loose that i expect it nd its not good because i cant go to a game thinking that i am gonna lose, aggh

there is one perk though i found a role model, her name is machi, she was so good and really realy nice, sigh, i wanna be just like her, thats my inspiration now... ok on with my day yesterday, the as we were about to go home, late mind you so we were scared coz there are alot of ghosts there... my aubt was late so we walked a little... it was scary, lots of trees, verly little light, people even less..anyway when we got to the car, my aunt accidentally banged it end at a sort of lamp post (very dark), and to top it off it was traffic because of october fest.

so its early now im supposed to be at ultra cheering my team mates, but i woke up late, and i dont have anyone to accompany me on the trip (i do not want to go there alone!), i actually feel bad for not being there but, i really feel tired my muscles are groaning at the thought of movement....aggh fencing is so not easy!!!

she told the story ... 4:24 PM

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

i dont know...today has been a good day so far, but i dunno i suddenly feel sad.. my armpit still hurt because i got hit there several times, and im worried about it... sigh maybe im just paranoid. im at the computer lab waiting, hehe yay 100score ko exercise kaka check lang hehe...

man maybe i just dontlike afternoons that much, its hot and i always feel sleepy so annoying!!!

she told the story ... 10:44 PM

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

well i want to begin my blog with cursing the people who created virus, its so annoying, everytime i use my usb ah theirs a virus, so i cant use it at home hassle... aggghhhhh thats about it, then io see my test paper , and no i did not flunk but apparently all my mistakes are due to idiocy which makes my blood boil even more.

embarrasing, whats embarrasing is i sent jeddy a video greeting her happy bithday, but her birthday is still next month ... good thing she didnt get it, but everyone kept laughing at me... wah!!!

she told the story ... 9:02 PM

Sunday, October 22, 2006

its already very late but im stil awake...the life of an insomiac...hehe im wathing regine velasquez concert and i really like it, i like that kind of music, with all the high notes that can make you nosebleed ...i like the challange, i just feel so frustrated that i cant reach the notes...

well i feel happy today though, for one thing mum decided that shes willing to buy me fencing gear and a violin, hehe i just feel a little guilty coz its like gonna cost her 8k its going to dig a big hole in her pocket... but how can you refuse an offer like that....

today jama was telling me a story and i really feel irritated that i cant live in one of those stories where there is a magical kingdom and everybody can fly, and that kind of crap that just dont happen, aggh ... well thats life right, cant have everything. . . ok ill finish this and watch some more hahaha

she told the story ... 9:33 AM

Friday, October 20, 2006

its 7:45 am and i really shouldnt be up, i still enjoy the very little sleep i get but my brother started screaming into my ear so that i would wake up, so you can imagine my temper flaring, i whaked him in the leg so hard my palm hurt for 3 min... its just tha he tries his best to bring out the worst in me, yesterday he sprinkeled water to my face to wake me up for no good reason, he destroys my stuff, does not listen to anyone, and makes a mess out of everything he is so annoying. i really dont get it im usually good with kids, they like ne and i like them, babies adore me, but dave agggh ....one way ticket to aggrevation...

so now their exams are comming up and my mum is trying her best to make him listen, but suddenly he needs to go to the bathroom, hes sleepy, he left something at my aunts house. one lame exucuse after the other and mum keeps on being lenient...what will happen to them nothing... and its annoying, its making my blood boil... so now they want to go to luneta to study, i told mum that she cant even make him study in a small confined space, how is she going to force him when they re in a wide open area, studying its just a whole bunch off hooplah that doesnt really happen nor work out, i just really wish he would mind his own business.

she told the story ... 4:46 PM

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

hehe im still at school amusing my self, i really dislike my internet at home its just that no matter how hard i try i still manage to destroy it!!!

well today we had a pictorial for green and white, the whole fencing team then i went to this seminar by liza s. flores here is a sample of her works...

isnt it sooo cute...

well i also want to post sample of brian vallesteros work, hes really good and i also went to one of his workshops...

dont you think its unique haha

di ba ang kulit.... sigh .... haha ok thats it

she told the story ... 12:08 AM

Monday, October 16, 2006

i never really got to write about it, it was nice, and i really cave to comment talithas gown it was very beautiful... well thats it for the debut, you will now read my rants on irritating stuff people and happenings... 1st after the overnight at jeddys house we went to sm bacoor and there was this really annoying security guard, i wanted to buy a book that was on sale, cirque du freak... so i brought it in, after i paid for it naturally i want to leave the establishment with it, but there was this security guard who asked me what happened to the book i was carrying, i showed him the book covered with red plastic, but he complained and said that i was carrying a big book... i mean what does he mean by that was he accusing me of shop lifting??? i replied that i already paid for it and that if i had anything in my bag i would have set off the alarm!!! deep inside i wanted to scram at him ... hello my mum pays like 45 thou. per sem i really dont need to steal!!!

2nd yesterday was a very eventful day first i got hit with the mcdo inflation of gravy price... seriously to charge 8 pesos per gravy container thingy its extortion, howcould they do that people are already poor as it is... P8 for gravy aggghhh...boycot mcdo!!!

3rd well my wallet disappeared so there i was inside mercury drug holding two juices and i go searching for my wallet ... to my great joy it wasnt there... so i called my friend-didnt answer, my mum-didnt answer, my tita-didnt answer, so after about 30 min i was panicing how the hell was i going to get home??? so i called mum again and thank god she answered... she came to fetch me, she wanted to go to the grocery because we had no food, fine.. i arrived home 9:30, i had not studied for my majors, and my project went down the drain... agggh

on a brighter note... *the hills are alive with the sound of music*... ano daw???

she told the story ... 8:53 PM

Sunday, October 15, 2006

the debutant and me

karlo at ako

kuya jr

kuya jr and me

hannah ako, kuya jr

first day high

me, hannah and jeddy

she told the story ... 3:27 AM

Thursday, October 12, 2006

today was one of those happy in the morning days for me, imagine i actually got to sleep, so today is the day where i want to think about my clothing, and not just wear shirt and jeans, so i wore something casual still but nice, naturally with nice clothing one must have nice shoes, so i chose these perfect close toed white pumps, man am i regretting that now, my feet are killing me, i even considered walking barefoot (inside campus) just to remove them, its like devil shoes or something, looks cool but its actually evil.

sigh, so here i am now in school... typing...

yay were gonna compete oct 28, i may loose big time but its the thought that counts

she told the story ... 9:38 PM

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

well its official i am what you call a chemistry dunce, i flunked my exams, wonderful aint it, so i guess i dont have to pretend that i like chemistry seeing as it does not do me any good, its better to be myself and shout out that i really hate chemistry right now, i dunno i got pretty good chem grades when i was in highschool, maybe my iq really did depreciate, this is really frustrating, especially when i try to make things work, it splatters like a paint bomb on my face... its really aggravating ... sigh, maybe i just need to study harder, or make an investment at pgh *knocks on wood* erg..

she told the story ... 9:30 PM

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

the debutant and moi

group pic hehe

sa salamin kinunan hehe

anna, me and rose

well today was eventful first i am so dead with my artcomp exam so if i flunk, damn... then i encounter cousin dearest in the lrt so we went to robinsons, hehe she treated me to pizza... and it was my first time in a construction site, the mask that engeneers wear really is heavy, but the one thing that really irritated me when i arrived is that mum didnt type my paper she said she would, so now im stuck with twice the work!!! well thats life right as annoying as it may seem...

she told the story ... 4:14 AM

Sunday, October 08, 2006

well i went to the debut and survived the song number... i sang one friend, the venue was beautiful and the food was great there were several problems however first a former classmate of mine went and i really didnt vare for her, but then i realized that she was making negative movements towards mysinging and she actually tried to stab my friends shadow while she was singing fricken psyco, i dunno why people like her who almost has every oportunity availabe is throwing her life to the dogs, a greater problem however was the fact that my chinese dressed ripped at my side, so without my bag half my bra would show... erg... not to mention the slit was like only 4-5 inches below my waist...so i looked like a suman...

so after the debut i wnt to the house of my friend, and when i looked out the window (we were in the 17th floor) a house was burning, very badly, and it was close...yay, it took about a hour or more for the fire to get extinguished. so the day over, i went home i rode the bus when there were these three shady men who loked like holdappers? i really got scared and i felt uncomfortable because they knew each other yet they spread and they were giving each other some sort of signal, i dont know maybe i was just paranoid. ah and the jip that i rode almost crashed with another jip, ood thing we just bumped into each other and into the metal but nobody got seriously hurt.

so tonight i have several problems, 1. exam teus-have not studied, 2. paper wed engltwo- have not started nor read article, 3. artcomphomework- not yey done 4. artcomp brochure- wish 5. any book readings that i should have read, wont even be read in my dreams... gawd im dead erg... hehe well bye

she told the story ... 7:04 AM

Thursday, October 05, 2006

abby

jeddy

hannah

keisha

haha wala nanaman akong magawa!!!
today we just finished discussing about defence mechanisms and i realized that most of my actions are masked by them, whenever you shout at somebody lower than you because you got berated...or when you reject complements...its denial, repression, masking, covering... its fascinating...

she told the story ... 11:16 PM

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

yesterday we discussed abut what we would do if ou superego was taken away from us for one day (the moral aspect of our lives) so were stuck with our id and ego. we had series of evil plots to steal money from the school including setting some bushes on fire, wearing disguises, and hacking into the computer system to crate a shutdown virus to all the school computers. but at least even without my superego i never intended to kill anyone. other groups plotted mass murder for delivery boys, while others wanted to name the school buildings after themselves, it was a wow. we also discussed the traits that we like about our father (mine includes: rich and intelligent (assuming that is)) then what traits i want my son to have (respect, intelligent, will become rich) lastly what traits do you want your mate to come (passion, intelligence, money) ha they all criss cross how nice huh.

then there is this recent event that is kangs debut, i just recieved the invitation and it said there that i was supposed to sing, what ...where did that come from huh... i cant sing i freeze uo, and can somebody tell me what song fits me thats approptiate for a debut.

well im very happy today, i finnaly won 2 out of 3 fencing games. sawakas hah

she told the story ... 6:41 AM

Sunday, October 01, 2006

me...wahaha walang kokontra

ah one of my favoritest artist

delirium, my favoritest cartoon

image from the black zodiac

my new crush ... from koreanovela... hay ...

she told the story ... 9:14 PM

today hmmn i dunno my iq was low this morning, i forgot that my class starts at 9:20 i actually thought class started at eight so when i arrived 8:20 i started to panic, where were my classmated did they vanish on me??? so i called and i texted just to find out that my class started at 9:20, which is irrelivant anyway since my prof didnt come... another sign of my iq fluctuating is the fact that i started singing barney and teletubby songs not to mention i keep on saying weee as the elevator went down... (sad right)

but thanks to food my iq is now recuperating.... today is application day for new freshmen students hehe i cant believe that time has passed so quickly... sigh ... i feel sad now the sudden firing of neurons stopped.. .so bye

she told the story ... 8:59 PM