Spring Blossom, Autumn Sorrows

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

well im here now in school standing up in the overpopulated computer area, and my brain is actually working...

earlier today i was thinking whether other peoples perception or outlook of me really mattered, or a more important question is do i care?

before i used to think i didnt, or i made it a point to lecture myself on how they dont really matter? but right now i seem to be questioning that too...

an incident earlier this morning made me think, i was talking with two people that are friendly enough, were not really close, but i make it a point to be nice to them, then i was going to make a joke but i didnt finish it, the first part came of as a bit rude or mataray, so walking down the hallway it made me wonder whether they were annoyed or angry, then it hit me, when did i start to care?

i dont know, thank god i get over things pretty quickly, plus im dense as a rock so...i think alot of people do care about what other people think, why would you put make up early morning, why would you wear a dress when its raining, why would people go on painstaking diets (that most of the time dont really work, hey if they did lipo sucction wouldnt be so damn popular). the key maybe is to care but not let it control your life, to not be dominated by other people...*be free like a butterfly flying over a meadow* *me: what???!!!*

wow a serious and very long entry...but thats ok i feel much better haha, girl power.

she told the story ... 10:12 PM

ThIs Is Me

i am a college student
i am fascinated with anything weird *not sick*
i like the color red
i like books
and i dont care what
the hell people do with their lives,
if their happt it works

FaVoRiTeS

~ art
~passion
~ determination
gaia online

WiShLiSt

~ i want a balloon.
~ fly to the moon.
~ become a loon.