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debut

2007-02-18T06:50:00.000-08:00

well today we went canvasing for a debut place, we went to oasis, plaza ibarra, grand terrace hotel, annabels...right now i really like annabells its elegant nice, wow but the prob. is i want to do it in the main launge so their real guests *resturant guests* might pass through...haha plus i saw paolo contis there tody, he is not tall but hes cute... i have alot of gown options hahaha

yaY

2007-02-07T19:47:00.000-08:00

yay i finally found you haha...yaw ko na mag type kaya yan nalang..until next time haah

2007-01-30T22:07:00.000-08:00

today, i realized something..and its that i have gradually labelled and thought of myself as incompetent and maybe even stupid when it comes to math subjects...the problem with that is sooner or later if i dont change my point of view about that it might spread...then ill generalize myself as les incompetant...and i know im not..i can understand it when i force myself to when i dont rely on others help..and tryto do it on my own, i love help and it would be hippocrital *is there such a word* if i said that i wouldnt ask for help coz i know i will...sigh i can do it if i believe its all in the head hahaha..

i thank you *bow*

*labo*

room

2007-01-28T03:38:00.000-08:00

today is a sunday i cant believe how time flew so fast. anyway today i had a bad feeling apart from remembering my mum died dream *according to the books its not a literall meaning it more of a u need to refresh or let go of something about that person* mum and i had a conversation about what i wanted for my 18th bday, coz more than anything i want my own room...but she told me that 1.if ever that will happen i have to share with my brother and 2.it really wont matter since its too expensive to have something built that i might not have any money for my tuition..she explained to me that maybe when i have a job then i could have a room. i understood what she was trying to say i really did i just felt so well sorry for myself coz id be working and i would still be in the same room..i dunno i felt sentemental...and or room being a total mess did not help...i try to thin that im not a petty person, in fact i keep on forcing myself to look at the bigger picture which is why i conclude that both my eq and iq had a seizure earlier today...the good news is that they have fully recovered hehe..

thats a good thing

god help please

2007-01-25T22:42:00.000-08:00

today i feel like a big blah..literally will there ever come a day that i will do well in a bloody chem exam...i have no idea but i am trying god i cant flunk again...i dont want to type anymore it will just add to my depression .....aaaaagggggggghhhh

superstitions

2007-01-20T06:01:00.000-08:00

today has been very hard complicated and difficult, maybe coz most of my muscles still hurt like hell and y mom sniggers at me and calls me a baby when she came with me to enroll...i can enroll by myself i have done it before, but i dont like meddling around with blank checks...it was good she came though coz there was some revisions in the check and every revision needs to be signed. so we took a lnog time there. then we went to the wake of kuya sherwin i got there in a terrible mood because i was tired and my muscles hurt. i regretted it instantly when i arrived there because i felt sorry i didnt even want to see him in the casket...but the really mind boggling part about my day is superstitions that mum asked me to do. 1. we had to stop somewhere before we go home, something about evil spirits not being able to follow home. 2. not being 13 in a vehicle...hello for what basis 3. changing your clothes outside of the house, she really asked us to...we couldnt enter unless we changed...well i did outside at our third floor so that no one will see hehe in the dark...aggk. now the mind boggling part is whether i dont know if im gonna continue these superstitions...i dont trust them and i find them irritating but what if there is still that chance that it might be true...what would you do???

waaahhhh

2007-01-17T20:32:00.000-08:00

dag nabbit this sucks my diary/planner/schedule/pic holder is missing i must have left it somewhere, come on who in the right mind would take that. it has my name and contact number, why didnt anybody bother to return it, or at least give it to the lost and found. aggh there are semi embarassing stuff there. curses...

oh and as it seems i suck at pop quizzes coz i just failed one today agggggghhhhh

prayers

2007-01-16T22:37:00.000-08:00

today has been both nice and very bad, i woke up early this morning like 5 because i wanted to go to gaia and play. then boom mom tells me something bad happened that kuya sherwin my cousins husband (the one i attempted to donate bllod to but i fainted) died this morning...i was like whaaat ...how could that happen just yesterday mum had a conversation with my cousin and everything was peachy. he was very young, both of them were very young, 1 year at marriage then boom...nada... its just really sad, it made me think how really fragile life is, a perfecly healthy man 1 day and dead the other...i dont even know what to say to my cousin...what do you say, does condolence honestly cover it...i dunno.

maybe all i can do now is pray that maybe hes in a better place...

though today i got the autograph of a singer that i like, well i liked 1 song...sigh...

FTK 2006

2007-01-14T06:16:00.000-08:00

well technically its 2007 but what the hell, today has really been very eventful because 1. i actually woke up early enough not be late for a call time of 6:00 am (hehe for all of you who dont know where i live its in valenzula) and 2. i had fun really, even though im tired as hell, and my feet hurt like mad...my kid was well not my real kid again coz i signed for adhd, but the kid i got had down syndrome...it was ok my kid was nice he didnt bite me which is a major plus...but he kept on running and running, my entire duration there consisted of walking, running, forcing him to play games, running, running and more running... it was actually sad because he couldnt talk and i dont think he understand squat what me and my partner was saying (ill tell u all about him later) he just reacted to our nudges, body language and well our smiles of encouragement... he smiled though which is a good sign coz it means that at least he's happy..all that work did not go in vain coz our kid was happy, urica...oh and he had a wonderful mom...hope she hangs in there ...

now let me get to my partner who has a very weird name, wilex ...(ok im not sure with the spelling) hes very nice, i liked him alot, shy but nice, he reminded me of carl...he was a gentleman to coz when our kid toppled the trash cans i was clostest, and therefore more eligable to pick up the garbge cans, he told me to leave it then he entered the gate thingy and picked it up himself. hes also great with kids, not only our kid (at ftk) but to other kids as well, it seemed natural for him to play with them. and the kids warmed up to him easily. unfortunatly he didnt talk much, and we talked very little as our time was spent trying to chase our kid...but what paltry detail i found out is this: hes pure chimese from ccs, (naturally taking up computer science)and he lives near the school...*sigh* well thats about it hehe

jed and keisha were also great with their kid hehe ...join kayo ulit nex year haha

wah reality is tom i have class ....noooooooooooooooooo...hate school aggh more chem, dag nabbit!!! anyway this entirely too long so bye

more quizzes

2007-01-10T20:53:00.001-08:00

You are a Career Girl!

You may not be a CEO yet, but you're well on your way to success.
You take your career seriously, and you wouldn't stop working for any guy!
An independent woman, you pay for your own car, clothes, and housing.
And men appreciate that - at least, the ones as driven as you are.

What Kind of Girl Are You?

You Should Own a Husky

Athletic, free-spirited, and perfect for cuddling

What Kind of Dog Should You Have?

You Are Artemis!

Brave, and a natural born leader.
You're willing to fight for what you believe in...
And willing to make tough decisions.
Don't forget - the people around you have ideas too!

What Goddess Are You?

What Your Black Outfit Means

You're a sophisticated woman with big city taste.
You have a strong creative force - even if you don't wear the boldest clothes.
You tend to intimidate people. But the right guy won't be intimidated by you!

Designer match: Dolce & Gabbana

Signature accessory: Gold framed sunglasses

What Does Your Favorite Outfit Say About You?

You Are a Classic Beauty!

You have a timeless beauty that looks great in every decade
Instead following trends, you stick to what works
And this means you never skimp on your beauty routine
Upside? Your classic looks tends to attract gentlemen - not boys.

What Type of Beauty Are You?

quizzes

2007-01-08T20:10:00.000-08:00

You Belong in Paris

Stylish and a little sassy, you were meant for Paris.
The art, the fashion, the wine, the men!
Whether you're enjoying the cafe life or a beautiful park...
You'll love living in the most chic place on earth.

What City Do You Belong In?

brain degeneration

2007-01-08T19:38:00.000-08:00

my brain has finally collapsed and is being eaten away by vultures...damn, physics was a bust (why are all those really complicated subject teachers so effin boring) i got contradicted so many times i thought i would completely grow a dunce hat automatically...hay i tried...crackers and i was yawning every 5 min which is really a bad thing bacause i was right in front of his face...i really couldnt help it...aggh..now i am perceived as i dunno dunce girl or whatever...dag nabbit..

medioctrity

2007-01-07T21:40:00.000-08:00

sigh..all my entries seems to start with a sigh...im back at school, re taking chem, awful sched and more tired than ever...still havent slept..well since when i was at vicas house we slept at 8, when im in my house i slept at 1 so where does that take me...very sleepy abby on the first day of school, well i guess its ok coz i still managed to make my sched work out, and all my teachers are great...especiall my devpsyc prof, she is so cool haha...sigh, actually i can go on forever about my life but i dont wanna type no more so....oh and my rosary broke i just really hope its not a bad omen...ciao

yay

2007-01-06T21:21:00.000-08:00

me at vica house horrah plus i finally got what i want in gaia...gwee the dragon yay hehehe

dream

2007-01-02T17:12:00.000-08:00

i had the scariest dream it was so surreal, i was transfered to ust that much i can remeber, then suddenly i want there it was like i was in some kind of other place . . . it was weird it wasnt me but i was watching her life...she entered some sort of org....she was wearing a gown when she swam in a pool..then the scene changed it was evil, dhe was trapped inside house first made to conquer her fear, she was asked to face a kapre ot a cyclops like thing . . .the way to beat them was to pull the upper lip up and then the lower lip down...she did do it sucessfuly...then the devil came, he had 2 creatures with hin the first looked like a newly born mammoth (who was supposedly gonna bring the end of the world), the second was a dog like wolf...she and the others crowched low nevermind if they were enemies or not, coz up until before the devil came the girl or me (i dunno) was still good and trying to get out of that house...but when he came fear like any ather came...he suddenly walked towards the huddled group one by one saying who was loyal and not...i or she was not loyal... a new rule came no one was to set foot ou of the house or else they would die, . . the an angel came to me or the girl..told her to leave the house no matter what kind death is in store god would always be there . . .so she did she left the house, before she could even crosss the grass the devil and his wolf was there...he asked where she was going...she said to leave, he asked if she knew she was going to die if she did that, and she replied that everybody has to die sometime...she started scattering some straw on the grass as she walked further towards the pavement...before she could take that last step the devil raised his hands and she backed away...she just said to wait for awhile coz she was scared...just then a voice called her name it was jesse and the angel was just ouside the grass ...so jesse just walked on and for the first time in a very long time she didnt feel afraid, guilty, sad...there was just contentment of released fear...she ooked at the sevil...and he said, its over your dead...her body was crumpled beside him not tuching the pavement ...it was inside the grass...but jesse felt really happy, for her soul was outside nothing else mattered...she looked at the angel beside her, smiled and with that they were gone....

that dream still gives me the creeps...i actually prayed right after that that never happens...aggh darn..sigh....well hehe t least it still had a happy ending

sigh

2007-01-01T16:48:00.000-08:00

sigh well new year is over...time to face reality and problen=ms again, school wise that is...i still havent fixed my schedule, i havent enroelled, i havent returned the book that i was supposed to return before the holidays, im a bum.

sigh again the most awful thing happened yesterday, well maybe not most awful but it was gross, i was taking a bath and fr the first time in a very long time ...i used a loofa and after like 1 min of scrubing a cockroach fell aggh, i dropped the loofa talaga eww eww eww eww, im never using that again agggh!!!!!

well im still at gaia...hay....im earning money very slowly but at least honestly agggghhhh

HaPpY nEw YeAr…

2006-12-31T09:18:00.000-08:00

HaPpY nEw YeAr… to all... hay nako im addicted to gaia but i did something wrong i sent a chain message it turns out its illegal there...sigh well i honestly did not know... well im not banned yet, i sure hope i dont get banned...this new year is a very happy one, i just hope the rest of he year goes well...ciao

2006-12-30T07:36:00.001-08:00

hehe this is how i look like now i am a certified gaia addict hehe saya kayalang im still broke and its getting very frustrating not having any money to buy the really cool items.. aggh i got a ballerina and a gown dont i look so cute...haha i also have pj's

uneventful

2006-12-27T16:10:00.000-08:00

well christmas is over... and im still happy that nothing bad happened...my cousins husband managed to survive the operation, they got a tumor bigger than an apple pressing his heart... it was heavy... and i got oodles of gifts that i really wanted... sigh but our xmas celebration itself seems so uneventful, nothing fun happened we just ate, and thats it...before we used to have bingo and progrms, now it just went splat...sigh...i dunno maybe i should just be grateful that it went smoothly....

i now have new friends in gaia by simply ading people i dont really know then chatting with them if they accept haha, judge people by their avatars hahaha -people join gaia so illhave more friends hehe la lang ka chat ko ngayon filipina based in america who's in middle school, come to think of it what is middle school is it high school? hmmn

people tell me about your xmas...tag please

2006-12-24T21:24:00.000-08:00

well to all you folks out there merry christmas!!!

blood and faint

2006-12-24T00:50:00.000-08:00

today was evwntful and not in a very good way, we went to the hospital coz kuya sherwin (the husband of my cousin) is in the hospita, hes about to have a major operation, he has cancer and to operate soon is vital coz he cant breathe anymore... so hell have an operation dec 27 . . . i really felt sorry for him he couldnt sleep flat on his back, he has to sleep sitting up coz if he doesnt he wont be able to breathe....so i wanted to help, he needs 8 bags of blood, so me and my cousins went to the hospital to donate some blood, well we lined up for a long time . . .then they got a little of my blood to test if it was clean, i was ok, i even walked across the street, then my mum called and started telling me that i might faint, because i only got an hour of sleep, i dunno i guess it did make me feel nervous coz i fainted....i just dropped i didnt even realize that i did faint.... i just felt like i was at home sleeping....it was a weird and creepy feeling, so in the end i didnt donate blood, coz my bp dropped to 60/90 low blood...damn, i really felt embarassed i mean i went there to help and i ended up falling flat on my arse

if anyone reads this who happens to want to donate blood, please contact me, ideally before 27 and not drunk...sigh....

i just wish it ended differently...guys please pray for my cousins husband....he really needs it...
peace'

merry christmas

gaia on line

2006-12-21T21:56:00.000-08:00

meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....lalang
this is now me... i used to be the one down with borrowed items....well we all have to return borrowed stuff.....

gaia is such a fun website... im very entertained unfortunatly im broke and unable to buy crap for my avatar... this is me

day out

2006-12-20T09:22:00.000-08:00

well im at vicas house haha nag internet while they are watching house...man if only i had internet like this i would be totally blissful!!! we went to megamall then to UST's paskuhan, its like a concert ....i met new people and it was very nice but unfortunatly im broke so i cant buy anything...sigh... agggh hate chem

brother issues

2006-12-17T15:35:00.000-08:00

well yesterday was eventful for me.. not to mention for my brother who somehow managed to get himself bitten by my aunts dog! (the dog is very weird, doesnt eat alot, does not sleep, and its rabies shots expired last year) so there we were my mum angry as hell coz he woudn admit he got bitten. it turns out he got bitten coz the dog was eating a bone, and my stupid brother tried to irritate it .... with a motive of kicking i think! sigh...now mum said we should observe him... drooling is not a good sign...

after that doggie encounter we went off to his school, so there i was stuck in a hot gym, watching grade 3 students in grass skirts dance to the music of tiny bubbles... horror.....

and now my mum wants me to go to his effin x-mas party, when he was kicking me this morning, i dont think so....

it is just sad when the most interesting thing that happens in my life is my brother....agggh must get out of the house.....i want to go to a magical mystical forest where hippos fly, and fishes sing...aggh im going craxy....haha craxy....crazy....lalalalalala

ciao

cool pics

2006-12-15T06:42:00.000-08:00

this is a really cool pic dont ypu think, very unique and handy...(ok that was corny....) but honestly its great right what would you do if you were born with these hands...

and jesse spencer is just oh lala ....hahaha

ok wala lang akong magawa...read my initial entry...this isnt it...heheh

new found time

2006-12-15T06:28:00.000-08:00

well i no longer have classes which is a very good thing, believe me people never take boredom for granted ever again, but now i dont want to study but i really want to leave the house, i was so used to leaving everyday that it was uncomfortable for me to not leave... thats not...good.

oh and i have realized that i maybe an insomnia...haha its just that yesterday it was already 4 and i wasnt sleepy at all i had a power boost... haha or maybe im just excited coz i was watching a part of season 3 greys anatomy... i love that series... it inspires me to be a doctor...

sigh, doomsday is nearing... i really o not want to destroy my new found happiness by looking at my chem lec course card, now thats just depressing... hay well aja ill strive to be better next year!

finals and christmas

2006-12-10T04:21:00.000-08:00

well its been a very good weekend, the luxury of being able to just relax and watch tv, but that is all going to end tom because i have to study for chemistry, both lec and lab.

i rally have nothing happening in my life, except for the fact the christmas is comming soon and i dont have any money, and i already know what mum wil give me, sigh...i wish i was young again where my mum would hang a sock and ask me to write a letter to santa every day, and every day before i wake up she would put something in my sock, that really made me happy. i cant ask for the same treatment now because i would look like a complete loon or worst mentally retarded. i was just really happy, have you people ever had a christmas moment where everything was so happy that you never wanted that moment to pass, well i have, and it did pass...but i feel happy that i had that moment.... *senti* hahaha

anyway loads to do...ciao

need to be the best

2006-12-05T05:19:00.000-08:00

when i first entered DLSU i really had high aspirations i wanted to be the bestest student, so that i could prove to my friends and family that i really am smart. it started out well wnough i aimed really high i wanted 3.0-3.5 and most of the time i got it, but now i feel like im in a hole, the bum hole because i feel as though ive lost the drive to be excellent in whatever it is that i do. so now i just really want to pass, and i got confused how is it that i came from not wanting a 2.5 to wishing i had a 1.0. i feel like its a new low!

ive been watching a new anime yakitate japan, its about bread, and how it can change your life. its really exaggerated and simple, because it really does revolve around bread, but it made me realize something, they were trying to work towards their dream, they wanted to be the best in the world even if it was as simple as making the best pie crust. or creating a bread for the entire country to love. it made me want to accomplish something that i will truly be great in again, sigh now i just have to find out what that is!

aggh finals season . . . hate . . . hate. . . hahaha *psco na ba . . .hahaha*

forgetfullness and beggars

2006-11-28T18:39:00.000-08:00

i always want to blog at times whem im happy or sad, but the irritating part is when i actually get to a computer i have already forgotten what i mwas sad or happy about. having a faulty memory sucks big time.

but what i do remember is feeling really bad this morning because i saw another beggar that i want to help but i dont know how, if you give them money they get used to it and ask for more money, if you dont give them money they just stay there looking like zombies who has no path nor direction! i feel really frustrated especially when its a very old lady and a very young kid, i mean where are their parents, their children those ages are really sensitive and fragile, i mean old people shouldnt be on the street, they should be inside houses drinking tea, life is hard and they have been through most of it, i think that deserves a little more credit! and what about the children, they get sick, and run down by cars doesnt anybody care???? i dunno, i want to help, maybe its a foolish drean, agggh....

well in my life things are awful, im flunking chem, most probably flunked artcomp big exam! about 4-5 papers to write, finals, org stress (juniors is this sat and i havent been traing due to unfortunate circumstances), malate (i dont even know whats going to happen there)...dag nabbit!

bleach addict

2006-11-21T18:37:00.000-08:00

my oppa-byakuya...hehe libre managinip!

it is now official i am back to being an anime addict, i just cant help it anymore i just have to watch right now im obsessed with bleach ... haha such fun, it can be frustrating though, sigh...why cant i have magical mystical powers...with the gling gling gling like they have...

i saw a fellow moser today hans...hes looking good i must say....

haha the stress is getting to me, i have to write several papers haha one in engltwo, one in theoper, hmmn and oodles of other stuff that are depressing therefore do not want to think about it!!!

shedule hassle

2006-11-16T20:12:00.000-08:00

why is always complicated when enrollment comes along, i dont get it, im an advance enrolee yet i have oodles of problems, i dunno whats going to happen next term all of my subjects are majors with two labs, one organic chemistry and the other integrated physics, plus im terminal in two subjects, theoper, and chem1 i know its pretty stupid to fail it but i just dont know how too do it. its like fencing no matter how hard i try i just dont seem to be improving.

i have really hit bum days, hehe on a brighter note i try not to wallow in self peity.. sigh...

must think positive.

the monk and malate

2006-11-15T05:50:00.000-08:00

well i did cut class to wath the tibetan monk spek for the first time ever in pholippine history....he was very young like 23 and i was really shocked he had a nice voice and he spoke very good english...mainly his speech was simple, he explained that we humans have accumulated karma over all our reincarnated lives, some good and some bad. we have poison in our system that is fed by our bad karma, but with is is the potential to be an absolute human being because we also have good karma, and that all humans have a united goal and that is to exist in peace. he also pressed on that we should not waste our lives but instead value it, because we all have a purpose in this life.

sigh, well malate issue is out, we actually was supposed to have a meeting today but im flaking out, i suddenly dont want to attend, dont want to tambay, dont want to draw, dont want to do anything. i dunno maybe its just in my mood, i just hope i dont get kicked out or anything. sigh im still fencing frustrated i just dont seem to be improving, the exercise is great an all but my ego is really taking a beat!

sigh well try try until you succed right...

church hotties

2006-11-12T18:52:00.000-08:00

have you ever went to church and saw someone really handsome, the kind that has glitters and a gling gling sound...and they awfully seem familiar. i did he was sitting in front of me he looked like the guy in one of those samurai movies, and his the prince, the facial features are astounding. though the flaw is hes cuter side view then front view. hehe

he was with a family i think, they dont look alike i dunno if hes courting the teenage girl, or its his sister, cousin whatever...sigh hehe .... chirp chirp chirp

and another thing is my mums has a chat mate, and my mum sent him a drawing that i drew, and he printed it out on a tshirt it lookes do cool, and he wants to send 1 to me haha, maybe i have a future as a t-shirt designer...

aggh why is enrollment so damn hard, the good thing now is that im in advance enrollment, so cool horrah.... but the problem is first i might very well flunk chem,(knocks on wood) and thats going to bonk me in the head, i really hope i dont fail!!! aghh subjects are scrambled, i dunno the danm course codes and the comp just told me that it was closed (yes, kaka touch grabe lecat!!!)

i just really hope i can resolve it soon...

finally over

2006-11-12T02:28:00.000-08:00

sigh well the exam hell week is now officialy over, all i have to do is wait to see how badly ive done... sigh i just really hope i dont fail anything, i might be up for advance enrollment but what if i flunk chem, damn in all tarnations!!!

another problem for me now is the junior fencing competition, i dont even want to join right now, my ego just took a huge wound now i want to re open it?! i know im not ready... i dunno... but our captain said that we aught to join if were really serious about fencing...

what do you people think i should do...

im wathing now an abnormally long old film called ben hur, three hours have passed and its still playing... people then really liked long movies!!!

EYES

2006-11-07T20:12:00.000-08:00

NONCHALANCE

SORROW

ANGER

disaster

2006-11-07T20:02:00.000-08:00

well ive had my bio exam and guess what it sucked like hell, it was the hardes bio exam i have ever taken, the pictures were all black and white so it was hell of a time trying to distinguish the arteries from the nerves, its like this 1. read the question (definition) 2.think of what its called 3.think of its number 4. look for the cranial number in the slide 5. check out the assigned number for the number....agggh too complicated, not to mention my chemistry skills is equivalent to that of air... what am i going to do...damn hell week!!!

ms excel

2006-11-07T06:19:00.000-08:00

god i want to scream ms excel is evil, i cant figure it out its like punching nails in my head, with all those formulas that doesnt work, man am i getting dumber by the minute??? because i honestly used to think i was smart, but now im just not so sure?! i dont know how to divide my body, exam tom biopsychology, exam thurs chemistry, midterm thurs artcomp, project thurs artcomp, and an exhibison tom.... agggh what is wrong with my schedule....

and next term physics plus chem...ahhhh i think my brain will explode... i feel so tired and depressed ... damn...wheres the chocolate????

house and medicine

2006-11-04T22:27:00.000-08:00

yesterday and today i have been watching a tv series called huse and i really like it because it talks about medicine and im considering it as a future career, i know i can do it, im just wondering if i will be happy while doing it.... damn. sigh...

hopless at chem

2006-11-01T20:29:00.000-08:00

ive been sitting in our comp. section for a long time now, but then i remembered that i had something to blog about and it is about my embarasment in class coz i couldnt answer a simple chem question, i know its my fault for not listening .... and i dunno i get it when i do its just that shes so boring!!! and patrick is entertaining... i dunno, but i have decided that i will listen to her no matter how much coffee it takes!!! aja!

me

2006-11-01T04:35:00.000-08:00

WALA LANG HAHA I JUST COMPILED MY PICS HAHA

november 1st

2006-11-01T04:21:00.000-08:00

well we went to the chinese cemetary, we had to walk and it was hot like hell but it was ok because i got to visit my grandfather... and my brother actually baught a green chick ...so its now living in our other room... right now sleeping.

ive recently joined deviant art and i like it, it caters to my ego when people say i draw well, it just irritates me that its slow sometimes... thats all.

happy holloween

2006-10-31T03:40:00.000-08:00

happy holloween people, today was a pretty good day, and i really needed it, because i just seem to shift from one crappy day to another. i feel good.... i really dnt know what else to sAY... i have nothing execept more horrible day reantings (for yesterday) and its really getting tired of it, wallowing in self peity wont really help me to accomplish anything. hahaha

well were going to th chinese cemetary tom, to visit grandpapa... thats my life as of now, dull but loving it.

fencing failure

2006-10-29T01:51:00.002-08:00

well its another official failing moment for me, i did not win! and almost all my teammates did, i really felt like such a looser earlier, but the one thing i can be proud about is that im not a sore looser, i still supported those who won, and cheered my best, i know that its my fault why i lost and i know that if i try harder i can get better. it just feels so frustrating that i dont have that natural fighting talent, whatever progress i get its not because its innately in me but because i have agression and i worked hard for it (or i just wanna hit alot of people)

i really felt bad, man... hay, well you win some you loose some right! sigh... thats life... on the bright side bernice won first!!! shes a friend and a good person im very happy for her! and i got some really good shots....

fencing failure

2006-10-29T01:51:00.001-08:00

fencing stress

2006-10-27T16:24:00.000-07:00

yesterday was not a very good night for me, well for one, i slipped off the stairs and ripped my pants, can you imagine my horror when i realized it i had already crossed the room with alot of people .... so there i was covering my hinie.... then the night progressed i didnt win a single game, my coach forced me to play against ust, coz no othe epee was present, they were all late. so there i was standing there like an idiot, asking them if i could play with them. sigh, then i played with the veterans yas i got tushed under my arms again so now i have bruising, underarm, upper arm, lower arm, upper thigh, knee. i feel so frustrated that i always loose that i expect it nd its not good because i cant go to a game thinking that i am gonna lose, aggh

there is one perk though i found a role model, her name is machi, she was so good and really realy nice, sigh, i wanna be just like her, thats my inspiration now... ok on with my day yesterday, the as we were about to go home, late mind you so we were scared coz there are alot of ghosts there... my aubt was late so we walked a little... it was scary, lots of trees, verly little light, people even less..anyway when we got to the car, my aunt accidentally banged it end at a sort of lamp post (very dark), and to top it off it was traffic because of october fest.

so its early now im supposed to be at ultra cheering my team mates, but i woke up late, and i dont have anyone to accompany me on the trip (i do not want to go there alone!), i actually feel bad for not being there but, i really feel tired my muscles are groaning at the thought of movement....aggh fencing is so not easy!!!

moody

2006-10-25T22:44:00.000-07:00

i dont know...today has been a good day so far, but i dunno i suddenly feel sad.. my armpit still hurt because i got hit there several times, and im worried about it... sigh maybe im just paranoid. im at the computer lab waiting, hehe yay 100score ko exercise kaka check lang hehe...

man maybe i just dontlike afternoons that much, its hot and i always feel sleepy so annoying!!!

irritation and embarassment

2006-10-24T21:02:00.000-07:00

well i want to begin my blog with cursing the people who created virus, its so annoying, everytime i use my usb ah theirs a virus, so i cant use it at home hassle... aggghhhhh thats about it, then io see my test paper , and no i did not flunk but apparently all my mistakes are due to idiocy which makes my blood boil even more.

embarrasing, whats embarrasing is i sent jeddy a video greeting her happy bithday, but her birthday is still next month ... good thing she didnt get it, but everyone kept laughing at me... wah!!!

concerts and stories

2006-10-22T09:33:00.000-07:00

its already very late but im stil awake...the life of an insomiac...hehe im wathing regine velasquez concert and i really like it, i like that kind of music, with all the high notes that can make you nosebleed ...i like the challange, i just feel so frustrated that i cant reach the notes...

well i feel happy today though, for one thing mum decided that shes willing to buy me fencing gear and a violin, hehe i just feel a little guilty coz its like gonna cost her 8k its going to dig a big hole in her pocket... but how can you refuse an offer like that....

today jama was telling me a story and i really feel irritated that i cant live in one of those stories where there is a magical kingdom and everybody can fly, and that kind of crap that just dont happen, aggh ... well thats life right, cant have everything. . . ok ill finish this and watch some more hahaha

pesky brothers

2006-10-20T16:46:00.000-07:00

its 7:45 am and i really shouldnt be up, i still enjoy the very little sleep i get but my brother started screaming into my ear so that i would wake up, so you can imagine my temper flaring, i whaked him in the leg so hard my palm hurt for 3 min... its just tha he tries his best to bring out the worst in me, yesterday he sprinkeled water to my face to wake me up for no good reason, he destroys my stuff, does not listen to anyone, and makes a mess out of everything he is so annoying. i really dont get it im usually good with kids, they like ne and i like them, babies adore me, but dave agggh ....one way ticket to aggrevation...

so now their exams are comming up and my mum is trying her best to make him listen, but suddenly he needs to go to the bathroom, hes sleepy, he left something at my aunts house. one lame exucuse after the other and mum keeps on being lenient...what will happen to them nothing... and its annoying, its making my blood boil... so now they want to go to luneta to study, i told mum that she cant even make him study in a small confined space, how is she going to force him when they re in a wide open area, studying its just a whole bunch off hooplah that doesnt really happen nor work out, i just really wish he would mind his own business.

art

2006-10-18T00:08:00.001-07:00

hehe im still at school amusing my self, i really dislike my internet at home its just that no matter how hard i try i still manage to destroy it!!!

well today we had a pictorial for green and white, the whole fencing team then i went to this seminar by liza s. flores here is a sample of her works...

isnt it sooo cute...

well i also want to post sample of brian vallesteros work, hes really good and i also went to one of his workshops...

dont you think its unique haha

di ba ang kulit.... sigh .... haha ok thats it

the debut

2006-10-16T20:53:00.000-07:00

i never really got to write about it, it was nice, and i really cave to comment talithas gown it was very beautiful... well thats it for the debut, you will now read my rants on irritating stuff people and happenings... 1st after the overnight at jeddys house we went to sm bacoor and there was this really annoying security guard, i wanted to buy a book that was on sale, cirque du freak... so i brought it in, after i paid for it naturally i want to leave the establishment with it, but there was this security guard who asked me what happened to the book i was carrying, i showed him the book covered with red plastic, but he complained and said that i was carrying a big book... i mean what does he mean by that was he accusing me of shop lifting??? i replied that i already paid for it and that if i had anything in my bag i would have set off the alarm!!! deep inside i wanted to scram at him ... hello my mum pays like 45 thou. per sem i really dont need to steal!!!

2nd yesterday was a very eventful day first i got hit with the mcdo inflation of gravy price... seriously to charge 8 pesos per gravy container thingy its extortion, howcould they do that people are already poor as it is... P8 for gravy aggghhh...boycot mcdo!!!

3rd well my wallet disappeared so there i was inside mercury drug holding two juices and i go searching for my wallet ... to my great joy it wasnt there... so i called my friend-didnt answer, my mum-didnt answer, my tita-didnt answer, so after about 30 min i was panicing how the hell was i going to get home??? so i called mum again and thank god she answered... she came to fetch me, she wanted to go to the grocery because we had no food, fine.. i arrived home 9:30, i had not studied for my majors, and my project went down the drain... agggh

on a brighter note... *the hills are alive with the sound of music*... ano daw???

talithas debut

2006-10-15T03:27:00.000-07:00

the debutant and me

karlo at ako

kuya jr

kuya jr and me

hannah ako, kuya jr

first day high

me, hannah and jeddy

killer heels

2006-10-12T21:38:00.000-07:00

today was one of those happy in the morning days for me, imagine i actually got to sleep, so today is the day where i want to think about my clothing, and not just wear shirt and jeans, so i wore something casual still but nice, naturally with nice clothing one must have nice shoes, so i chose these perfect close toed white pumps, man am i regretting that now, my feet are killing me, i even considered walking barefoot (inside campus) just to remove them, its like devil shoes or something, looks cool but its actually evil.

sigh, so here i am now in school... typing...

yay were gonna compete oct 28, i may loose big time but its the thought that counts

chem dunce

2006-10-11T21:30:00.001-07:00

well its official i am what you call a chemistry dunce, i flunked my exams, wonderful aint it, so i guess i dont have to pretend that i like chemistry seeing as it does not do me any good, its better to be myself and shout out that i really hate chemistry right now, i dunno i got pretty good chem grades when i was in highschool, maybe my iq really did depreciate, this is really frustrating, especially when i try to make things work, it splatters like a paint bomb on my face... its really aggravating ... sigh, maybe i just need to study harder, or make an investment at pgh *knocks on wood* erg..

riding

2006-10-10T04:14:00.000-07:00

the debutant and moi

group pic hehe

sa salamin kinunan hehe

anna, me and rose

well today was eventful first i am so dead with my artcomp exam so if i flunk, damn... then i encounter cousin dearest in the lrt so we went to robinsons, hehe she treated me to pizza... and it was my first time in a construction site, the mask that engeneers wear really is heavy, but the one thing that really irritated me when i arrived is that mum didnt type my paper she said she would, so now im stuck with twice the work!!! well thats life right as annoying as it may seem...

debut and shocking experiences

2006-10-08T07:04:00.000-07:00

well i went to the debut and survived the song number... i sang one friend, the venue was beautiful and the food was great there were several problems however first a former classmate of mine went and i really didnt vare for her, but then i realized that she was making negative movements towards mysinging and she actually tried to stab my friends shadow while she was singing fricken psyco, i dunno why people like her who almost has every oportunity availabe is throwing her life to the dogs, a greater problem however was the fact that my chinese dressed ripped at my side, so without my bag half my bra would show... erg... not to mention the slit was like only 4-5 inches below my waist...so i looked like a suman...

so after the debut i wnt to the house of my friend, and when i looked out the window (we were in the 17th floor) a house was burning, very badly, and it was close...yay, it took about a hour or more for the fire to get extinguished. so the day over, i went home i rode the bus when there were these three shady men who loked like holdappers? i really got scared and i felt uncomfortable because they knew each other yet they spread and they were giving each other some sort of signal, i dont know maybe i was just paranoid. ah and the jip that i rode almost crashed with another jip, ood thing we just bumped into each other and into the metal but nobody got seriously hurt.

so tonight i have several problems, 1. exam teus-have not studied, 2. paper wed engltwo- have not started nor read article, 3. artcomphomework- not yey done 4. artcomp brochure- wish 5. any book readings that i should have read, wont even be read in my dreams... gawd im dead erg... hehe well bye

fairy

2006-10-05T23:16:00.000-07:00

abby

jeddy

hannah

keisha

haha wala nanaman akong magawa!!!
today we just finished discussing about defence mechanisms and i realized that most of my actions are masked by them, whenever you shout at somebody lower than you because you got berated...or when you reject complements...its denial, repression, masking, covering... its fascinating...

theoper and winning

2006-10-03T06:41:00.000-07:00

yesterday we discussed abut what we would do if ou superego was taken away from us for one day (the moral aspect of our lives) so were stuck with our id and ego. we had series of evil plots to steal money from the school including setting some bushes on fire, wearing disguises, and hacking into the computer system to crate a shutdown virus to all the school computers. but at least even without my superego i never intended to kill anyone. other groups plotted mass murder for delivery boys, while others wanted to name the school buildings after themselves, it was a wow. we also discussed the traits that we like about our father (mine includes: rich and intelligent (assuming that is)) then what traits i want my son to have (respect, intelligent, will become rich) lastly what traits do you want your mate to come (passion, intelligence, money) ha they all criss cross how nice huh.

then there is this recent event that is kangs debut, i just recieved the invitation and it said there that i was supposed to sing, what ...where did that come from huh... i cant sing i freeze uo, and can somebody tell me what song fits me thats approptiate for a debut.

well im very happy today, i finnaly won 2 out of 3 fencing games. sawakas hah

random images

2006-10-01T21:14:00.000-07:00

me...wahaha walang kokontra

ah one of my favoritest artist

delirium, my favoritest cartoon

image from the black zodiac

my new crush ... from koreanovela... hay ...

2006-10-01T20:59:00.000-07:00

today hmmn i dunno my iq was low this morning, i forgot that my class starts at 9:20 i actually thought class started at eight so when i arrived 8:20 i started to panic, where were my classmated did they vanish on me??? so i called and i texted just to find out that my class started at 9:20, which is irrelivant anyway since my prof didnt come... another sign of my iq fluctuating is the fact that i started singing barney and teletubby songs not to mention i keep on saying weee as the elevator went down... (sad right)

but thanks to food my iq is now recuperating.... today is application day for new freshmen students hehe i cant believe that time has passed so quickly... sigh ... i feel sad now the sudden firing of neurons stopped.. .so bye

no nothing

2006-09-29T00:08:00.000-07:00

the entire day yesterday there was a storm and a big blackout, it was very very hard, i cannot imagine how people in the 18th century (or whatever year without electricity) ... damn it was hot, dark and a little scary going down the stairs...

but thank god the lights are now back on and will and grace is there to cheer me up... its really creepy how many gay men there are.

sigh...

questions

2006-09-26T06:50:00.000-07:00

these days i have been really wondering about what i want to do with my life: ptions, become a surgeon (cardio, or neuro), work at an office, become a professor, completely waste all my science units and beome a graphic designer... i really dont know and i know that i have to decide soon, clinical or industrial...god erg...

sigh i feel really bad coz i changed 1 decimal point to get a 9/10. aggh am i a bad person (haha kababawan) this week is just so toxic for me...i have a quiz every friggin day. aggh. plus to add on i saw a deranged man getting tinkie on the garbage uncovered... aggh nightmare....

experiment a.k.a red

2006-09-21T21:32:00.001-07:00

we had to do an experiment for our class . . .guess whose the guiney pig (pardon the spelling) anyway we had to poke him with toothpics, it was really funny, we kept on laughing. poke in the tongue, upper and lower lip, nose, cheek, forhead, neck, back chest, thigh, leg, forearm, upperarm, fingers...the best was the foot and toes... (thats the job for super keisha) haha. it was alot of fun.

sigh i dnt know what to do about malate, i love the org, and most of the people (especially fellow mosers and the art staff) i really do but the problem is i hate spending time at the office trying to communicate to the wall, everyone seems to have another wavelength than me, i dunno, maybe ill get kicked out (though i hope not). so now i dont know if i should go there or not, im just really uneasy. *sigh* what do i do will someone please give me advice.

baha

2006-09-20T21:48:00.000-07:00

aggh my head hurts, anyway its pretty annoying that i had to walk through an immense amount of flood just to get home its so blah... erg, i hate baha

finally times two

2006-09-19T23:11:00.000-07:00

first: i finally got to play an actual fencing game, i lost but hey it was my first time hehe, i wore the white jacket, the heavy metal helmet, with the wirings and the machine, the whole entalada... unfortunatly i got my shoulders tushed so now it hurts, good thing im not prone to dark bruises.

second: i finally got to go swimming its like a dream fullfilled, well, i couldnt swim more than 100 meters sucessively but, i got 18 mor laps crosswise straight, sigh the only problem was i didnt get to attend my malate meeting. seriously i think their going to kick me out soon or ill get demotion or something, i dunno.

sigh i just really hope everything works out.

theoper

2006-09-18T21:05:00.000-07:00

this is the day after theoper class, i really liked it coz it focuses on humans and it really made me think, coz some are contradicting, do you believe that humans are 100 free to make their own decisions, or do you believe that others have to make those decisions for you. do you believe that the environment influences who you are today, or is it simply genetic?

but perhaps the most boggling question was about who you really want to be with. would you rather find someone who inspires you to live or someone that you would die for??? i dunno, personally i would rather have someone that i am willing to die for, live is very precious if im willing to give that up, then a pretty hard rock hit me in the head. kidding, that actually reminded me of a quote that was stenciled above a mortuary...

"in your loneliness, find something good enough to live for, great enough to die for"

2006-09-16T19:55:00.000-07:00

http://s18.photobucket.com/albums/b139/winterpop/made%202006/ its an art link, go ahead if you want to check it out, well here i am in a small computershop and i seriously feel like im going to melt, what is with the heat today, its really aggravating!!!

anyway i missed everything yesterday, the training, my art meeting, hey i was broke plus i was really tired. .. im not about to lest i free day pass me by!!!

ive been watching project runway. i had a marathon up to 5 am in the morning, haha so im a little wozzy hurrah

end of the week

2006-09-14T23:26:00.000-07:00

i cant believe that 1 week has already passed, classes are now up and about which just means im going to have more frequent headaches... sigh i still have to do my malate residency erg...

and di pala ko foil sa fencing, it turns out im an epee (pronounced as epay) heavier sword really, but less complicated rules, no more right of way, as long as you hit any part of the body the point is yours. theres going to be a competiton on oct 28, i dunno if i should join???

sigh and bye...

weird people

2006-09-12T21:37:00.000-07:00

first: earlier today when i was about to go to school i saw a sight that really shocked me... there she was an old woman, very old about 70-80 wearing a wedding gown on top of her clothes while carrying a ratty purse, i would assume that she is crazy, and i really felt deep sympathy, what would drive a woman like her to do that to herself, and why was no one taking care of her, doesnt anybody care anymore??? its hard to believe that after a person takes care of you, thay you can just throw him or her out into the curb. its just wrong.

second: a really cute guy, as in very very cute rode the same jip???(forgive me for the spelling) as i did, he was foreign i guess, he looked like a model, but theat really wasnt the weird part, his skin was really unique i guess, his upper arms looked like he caught all the freckles that the world has to offer, while his hands looked like it was burned, more like the white scars or balat as we have here in the phil. (is staring that rude when your staring at a guy???, coz i was staring and he kinda stared back) haha sayang bumaba na ko hahaha

anyway, apart from weird people. i got to touch, more like poke a brain today, several in fact, so now im sitting in our comp. lab reeking with the stench of formalin, and decaying brain. i wonder where they harvested it, imagine after all the work and effort a human puts in his life whether academic or social, you just end up there in a dish pan, as opposed to being eaten by worms, or ashen. doesnt just make you feel optimistic??? haha joke

ok im going to end it, its entirely too long. bye

computer room-yuchenco

2006-09-11T21:03:00.000-07:00

aggh, my heAD hurts, im on my second day and all morning i kept on thinking that there is no way that school is starting again... why does summer have to breeze off so quickly...

well i did learn something considering ... i learned it yesterday, we were going to study the nerves in the brain, and my prof mentioned that teenagers act the way they do (immature, restless, rebellious, stupid, idiotic, and moronic) is because the portion of the brain that controlls these acts have not yet developed.... see the world has just been explained. see there is always a logical explanation for everything...

aggh i still cant believe we had chem lec. and actully had lecture...its the 2nd bloody day. how evil can you get??? i now have to think about thermochemistry, and i dont even want to think...

haha patrick looks like a polar bear, hannah looks like a mongoose, keisha looks like a koala, jeddy looks like a fish (bangus) red looks like a whale, i look like a cat hahaha

ive gone kuku clock in the head....hahahaha

too long and too much

2006-09-11T00:50:00.000-07:00

well it has been a very long time and too much has been happening in my life, first is mos- i cant really tell every detail coz were not supposed to, but i really loved it, even though my hands looked ratty because of all the makahiya cuts, and the fact that i fell of a ditch, was rolled over by some people (literally speaking) and i carrided a whole lot of people, afterwards it really payed off because i know that ive become a stronger person because of it, and i was able to let go of some of the factors that i dislike in me. we had to read it out... anyway enough about that...

at home things are under a time bomb, the suspence is killing me and im torn in the middle, my mum and aunt are fighting, my aunt who took care of me as a child, who brought and fetched me from school ... i dunno i love my mum. and honestly i dont know whos right or wrong. its just making my head hurt alot.

damn i cant believe class has started, its awful. my head is turning acidic...toxic....

anyway thats it bye

good day

2006-09-01T07:49:00.000-07:00

well today turned out to be a very good day, we got to training, we did 100 launges (i am so proud) but my knees hurt like hell, the only inspiration the team captain could give us was that the philippine fencin team does the same training, and when we join uaap that ioo will become 200 (the horror, trust me 100 is enough to make your kness collapse if your not that used to it)

after training we went to meagamall (me, kathleen, and keish) we went ice skating, it was fun, though i landed on my bum several times (i feel ance again proud, i can skate adequately now!!!) haha i even forced the two to join me in the middle of the ice... we didnt have enough money afterwards to eat both lunch and dinner ...all we could afford was 10 peso doughnut.

tomorrow is going to be another good day, thank god always

bye

please

2006-08-31T20:30:00.000-07:00

oh and please read my original entry about irritating people, just scroll down erg, kakainis talaga!

illusions galing

2006-08-31T20:24:00.000-07:00

go here its amusing promise, these are eye illusions, try it.

http://michael-rodriguez.com/illusions/ilovelucy.html

http://michael-rodriguez.com/illusions/tree.html

http://michael-rodriguez.com/illusions/transparent.html

personality profile

2006-08-31T20:21:00.000-07:00

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have high extroversion.
You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.
You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.
Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"

Conscientiousness:

You have high conscientiousness.
Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.
Most things in your life are organized and planned well.
But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.

Agreeableness:

You have medium agreeableness.
You're generally a friendly and trusting person.
But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.
You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.

Neuroticism:

You have low neuroticism.
You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.
Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.
Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

IRRITATING people

2006-08-31T19:54:00.000-07:00

well right now im in am in internet shop at shaw, waiting for a friend to arrive because we have training. it was easy to get here but there was one irritating ampaguita seller, who like kept calling me "taba" or fat seriously i wanted to kick his ass, but alas my good inner side has won and i used the power of being deaf. i was thinking all the way here that if the man was remotely hansome (which i am telling you now is universally impossible, unless with severe whole body plastic surgery) i would be able to accept it. you know its ok since he's an adonis or something, or an option to that would be if he was reed thin, like if he weighed 80 pounds, and looked like he hadnt eaten for a month. but still no, he looked like a very ugly version of budda (no offence budda) for heavens sake the man was larger than me, he would have given shamoo a run for his money.

*breathe*
*breathe*

and for his info, im not even that fat sure im chubby and all, god knows im not thin but im pretty and i carry it well *dont contradict me, my blog!* i mean why doesnt he just shut up, i know already, no one has to rub it in my face, especially the likes of him. so now im here ranting, and ive made a resolution, im giving up chocolate, i did it before i can do it again...*bitter*

sigh well this is getting me nowhere, so ive decided to get over it.. so tata!

1st training at ultra

2006-08-30T07:05:00.000-07:00

today was my first official training in ultra as a fencer!!!
so i am going there to train with other schools...keisha and i devised a plan so that we wont tarnish lasalle's good honor because were sucky fencers, were going to go there without any school logo, attired in blue with an A print (what..my name is abby and i like blue...its not a crime) haha joke

while going there we got lost, we couldnt find the damn building, but we got there...

tomorow is dooms day aka course card day, the horror, please for everyone who reads this, pray for me...

ciao

movie marathon

2006-08-28T10:04:00.000-07:00

well i went jogging today, plus i played badminton i can say that i am very proud of myself...

im watching now pirates of the carribean "dead mans crest its very interesting ...right now their having a three way fight...

before that i wathed the ant bully, and my super ex girlfriend. both i must say are very nice films. highly recomended by yours truly...

i dont get it if i had a squid for a beird i would be dying to shave it off. .. on second thought that would involve too much blood, going to antartica would be better, get severe frostbite, less blood

aggh i love jack sparrow!!!

*going crazy screaming...sorry
*ok im back
*but leaving
*so bye

church

2006-08-27T09:49:00.000-07:00

well i actually went to church today and listened...its a miracle
and what the priest was saying got me to think, he was telling us a story.

it was about two young couples who decided to go to a holloween party...the man was dressed as satan while the woman was dressed like a witch... they decided to leave early, but when they stepped out it started to rain, they ran and thunder roared, they saw a church, and decided to take shelter inside. mass was going on so when they pushed open the door, like it was rehersed loud thunder and lightning boomed. one of them screamed "nandito na si satanas" (satan is hare) so they all ran, in fear. but there was an old man who didnt run, mainly because ha had rayuma (back pains) he couldnt stand. so the man dressed as satan approached him...the old man in fear told him "satanas nandito po ako sa simbahan, pa dasal dasal pero alam niyo naman na sainyo talaga ako" (satan even though im at church praying, you know im yours).

well my comment is: it must have been some costume, they should give a grammy to the designer. but seriously if you were in this situation what would you do? my answer was close your eyes and pray, that is if i hadnt passed out yet. what would a normal city girl do? how about you what would you do?

quizzes

2006-08-25T01:31:00.000-07:00

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced.

Overall, your true self is reserved and logical.

With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.

In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.

In stressful situations, you seem cheerful and optimistic.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

finally

2006-08-25T00:49:00.000-07:00

well its official today is the final day of examinations... and i couldnt be happier, just imagine...sleep, now its just two whole weeks before i discover how badly i did in my exams.

*aggh bigla akong inubo*

well the bad news is my puppy got his foot stuck in a whole so now his limping...
sigh the life of a puppy....

so since nothing remotely exciting is happening in my life thats just that

oh and by the way they say they found a merman in cebu, i dont know if its true, cool pics though

more rantings

2006-08-21T18:19:00.000-07:00

well today is officially the start of finals week, aka the doom of most La Sallian students, now is the time when we burn our eyebrows out, look harassed and look awful every morning. not to mention coffee becomes an addiction, then at the day of the exam itself, you realize theat the chapter you read is completely wrong, and 2 weeks later you get a 0.0 in your course card

welcome to my life...

earlier this morning there were two students who were talking about their school work, how one of them has to read 8 chapters for an exam. i wanted to tell them that if i only had to rad 8 chapters for my exam, without all the hassle of papers, projects, portfolios, i would be jumping with joy...

but no, i have to complete my portfolio, make 2 problem sets, read 12 chapters for chemistry, 5 chapters for experimental psychology, to top it off study religion and chemistry lab... i really hate the living...so naturally when people say La Sallians are just rich, snotty kids that dont do any work, i will really get irritated, and i am sure hair pulling will be involved (just kidding..im not that barbaric) hehe

so now i have to finish the work, ciao

questioning

2006-08-15T22:12:00.000-07:00

well im here now in school standing up in the overpopulated computer area, and my brain is actually working...

earlier today i was thinking whether other peoples perception or outlook of me really mattered, or a more important question is do i care?

before i used to think i didnt, or i made it a point to lecture myself on how they dont really matter? but right now i seem to be questioning that too...

an incident earlier this morning made me think, i was talking with two people that are friendly enough, were not really close, but i make it a point to be nice to them, then i was going to make a joke but i didnt finish it, the first part came of as a bit rude or mataray, so walking down the hallway it made me wonder whether they were annoyed or angry, then it hit me, when did i start to care?

i dont know, thank god i get over things pretty quickly, plus im dense as a rock so...i think alot of people do care about what other people think, why would you put make up early morning, why would you wear a dress when its raining, why would people go on painstaking diets (that most of the time dont really work, hey if they did lipo sucction wouldnt be so damn popular). the key maybe is to care but not let it control your life, to not be dominated by other people...*be free like a butterfly flying over a meadow* *me: what???!!!*

wow a serious and very long entry...but thats ok i feel much better haha, girl power.

art

2006-08-13T08:34:00.000-07:00

this is one of the pics i drew...the others wouldnt appear...erg

my art

2006-08-13T08:08:00.000-07:00

well today i printed some of the artworks that i did and i really felt proud, it actually looked pretty... i didnt expect it to turn out so well...

here are some . . .

ok so my futile attempt to post some fell flat so i wanna think about something else, earlier this week we viewed music videos that we crated and other students for our filipi2 i must say when they played the video we created i wanted to vanish, change my face and name, i was blushing so hard, and with my round face i probably looked like a tomato.

we also viewed some off the videos that got to enter the competiton of mtv's, there were some good ones and there were others that just made you wonder how it ever passed the judges, (kinda makes me think that money was involved. . .im not saying it was), but come on, some really had no story, some made my head hurt with the bright colors, we even encountrered one that looked like a documentary.. how could they have passed?!!

i have a quiz tom and it annoys me how prof. gives a quiz every meeting, were only human, ok so im only human, there are some that are hybrids that managed to harvest newtons brain. so they can deal with all this stress but sad to say i am just not one of them. . .

well for those i know ill be brandishing my art, so be warned hehehe, bye!!!

2006-08-07T14:34:00.000-07:00

gosh here i am now 5:30 am writing about nothing above crap..but anyways no one really cares so ....

i wanna talk about my day yesterday whuch has won the gold pookie doll of the worst commutiong day that i have ever experienced, you see i usually take jip..(i dunno how to spell...) but for some reason i decided to take AN fx after all it was really aot and hey the vehicle has air con, well i think it wanted me to stay because i was stuck there for 4 hour, they say it was flood i say fate... nah just joking, but seriously my butt bagan to hurt very badly and nature was calling me, plus since the fx took a shortcut i didnt know where i was, what if the driver suddenly turned psyco and asked us all to go down, id be lost....LLLLOOOOSSSTTTT...*drama*

apart from this chem was ok, it was steph b-day *belated* hehe

oh and i finally got to hold a sword, it turns out im a foilist...but thats ok, a sword is a sword hahaha arnis nalang, ok na haha cge i have to research then go to class, erg

by the way im selling csi season 5 for P300 i only watched bits and pieces of it once... if anyone is interested just tag ...okies bye

flunking chemistry

2006-07-27T06:40:00.000-07:00

hay nako, braindead na yata ako!!! and my proof is i flunked my chem. exam ...good thing my begging powers have improved, im not sure if my grade is going to improve though.

by the wAY it is official my rels prof now, is the lowest religion grader i have ever encountered in my entire life...plus shes getting grumpier by the day abd i really didnt think that was possible!!!

i finally bought the little endless storybook by jill thompson, im so happy!!!

ok so now im looking at my ceiling, it collapses and there are green flying martians, carrying squirt guns comming to obduct me...i think their part of the system that collects defective brains or something!!! well they came to the right person....

b-day ko....kahapon

2006-07-21T09:11:00.000-07:00

well yesterday was my birthday, initially it was ok. . .it was weird though in all honesty i wasnt that excited about it, but it turned out ok in the end i bought season 1-2 of desperate housewives, ghost whisperer, and will and grace, so i was happy by the end of the day!!!

today was total work, we finally started our replication two the one with a 120 minimum respondents. wow total hassle, it really is hard to go up to a person and ask if he or she can participate in your experiment. and i encountered alot of really rude people who just walk wave their hand and ignore you. . .that really ticked me off coz come on its a 2 min expriment, you choose a picture then tell me if that person is beautiful or not. its really very annoying. sigh. . .well the good thing is that we were able to finish it, i felt so relieved . . . so poud of myself that me and my groupmated managed to harass 120 people to participate into our experiment.

im watching desperate housewives now, it really cute..

relidion not so nice

2006-07-18T09:26:00.000-07:00

well its certified i flunked religion, and our prof. is like major grumpy it like a combination of midlife crisis, menopause and spinsterhood. . .i dunno when i first met her i really liked her, midway she started to snap, get grumpy and like brathe fire every time we make a mistake or question her.

i our exam i had a couple of questions i wanted to raise up, but she bit the head of the first person who asked about her marking (metaphorically speaking offcourse) so i asked jeddy she said i shouldnt ask anymore coz she might get irritated and flunk me. considering i flunked the first major exam i feel like im walking on dangerous ground. its like walking in a room filled with land mines (i think its those little bombs that people plant on the ground, but im not so sure)

my birthday is comming up, its on thursday, im gonna be 17 yeay...(actually i just like the little money that comes with it) im very sure it wont last a month.

sigh im packed. . .

misery

2006-07-16T08:39:00.000-07:00

well nothing much is normal just the normal day to day torture in school, i hate this why is college so damn difficult. . .

SYPERMAN RETURNS

2006-07-12T23:32:00.000-07:00

joy

2006-07-12T23:10:00.000-07:00

im sooooo happy that we dont have any classes today, if we did my behind would be burned . . .in the form of lunking chemistry....

i just really wish we dont have classes tom. as well that would completely make my week....hehehe

hate rels.

2006-07-11T08:17:00.000-07:00

agggh gosh i hate religion class today it really sucked for one thing i flunke my exam, and another i think my professor is undergoing midlife crisis or something bad. . .coz half the time smake is streaming out of her ears!!! man i cant believe i flunked rels. i hate it so much right now!!!

fencing is fun. . .fun. . .fun, my knees hurt like crap. . . but i really like the people .. . i like a new person now hehe also in the squad, i dont like captain that much anymore, hes like a big brother now, someone who corrects you that much must be somewhat related!!! erg. . .

ah i feel so sleepy!!! i have oodles of work that i dont think i can finish . . . cracker poopy pants

avatars

2006-07-09T21:31:00.001-07:00

sigh here i am again.. im creating an avatar for myself. . .its so amusing

well yeasterday was eventful, we went to glorietta with my brothers daddy dearest. . . i cant really say i like the man but at least i was civil. . . honestly. . . i dunno now i have bad vibes against foreigners (hehe i know it will fade . . . their just too cute) we watched superman, i have to hand it to the actor hes cute, he has talent, he has the height. . . but damn the costume just had too much body padding. .if he were an animal he would look like he had a head of a hamster coneected to the body of a bear!!!

i hate classes . . .i just wanna go home and sleep. . .thinking is to hard. . .just sleep!!!

(ok so ill just put aside my wishfull thinking and say buh bye) : )

avatars

2006-07-09T21:31:00.000-07:00

fencing 101

2006-07-04T08:09:00.000-07:00

well ive decided to take up fencing as my new sport, its really great . . .well except for the part where i felt like i was a grandmother in need of dire assistance (especially going down the stairs!!!) i really like it i feel so good after the workout, and people believe me its not as easy as it looks, i used to think all you do is wave a sword around. . .but damn its harder than vollyball . . .i practice now 4-7:30. yeay, so when i arrive at my house i feel like my brain just fell off and groan at the intense amount of workload i have to face!!!

i already have 3 crushes yes. . . the first is strict, then dimples, then trainer(cod name obviously:doesnt really take much of brain usage to figure that out). . .unfortunatly mr. strict, doesnt notice me at all! or in that rare coincidence that he does its because im not doing my stretching well!! (how wonderful) and trainer is going to graduate after this semester(wah. . .)
dimples . . .im not really sure. . .

aggh my legs hurt!!!

p.s.if anyone knows anything about making and editing music video's please please comment or tag. . .i really suck at anything that involves remote usage of electricity (so enlighten me please)

2006-06-28T21:26:00.000-07:00

wala lang. . .adorable nya tingnan hehe-the whole scruffy look works. . . crush

wala lang

2006-06-28T21:14:00.000-07:00

adrian grenier

eto ko . . .im in an unknown internet shop. . .10 per 30 minutes, actually i have no business in the internet. . .i was just amused by the low price. . .

oh and im going join fencing. . .so goodluck with my life. . .

wah school is evil!!!

ummmmm....

2006-06-27T07:32:00.000-07:00

well i just had to blog the happenings of today. . .starting with my chemistry teacher dropping our class like a rotten potato on the sidewalk, and he was replaced by a prof. which would have been ok if only i didnt get accustomed to sir nikkos ways. . .i actually liked listening to the man . . .so now im completely biased. . . not to mention i dont understand half of what the new professor discussed. . .its like our class underwent a demotion, no pun intended . . .but thats how i really feel erg. . .and sir nikko was like preaching how we were the highest class and that it was a record. . .so the bottomline is, i was just really annoyed! i mean why us. . .i dont like him anymore *sulks like a baby*

so after me and my mum went shopping . . .yeay. . .shoes, and bags galore hehehe, and i finally got a new watch, my old glassless poor old watch can finally retire!!!

so as a finalle today on the ride home me and my mum were talking, i even met tim (malate art staffer) there was this boy, and a girl with very pretty long hair . . . so i ignored them, they kept looking at me funny, and when i looked back the girl kept on smiling at me like she was a contestant for a beauty pagent and i was the judge. . .but when the boy . . .named arnel. . .went down, the girl he was with sat down beside me and asked for my name, and where i studied . . .i asked why she wanted to know, and she replied that the guy she was with had a crush on me, because he thought i was cute and chubby?! who would have thought . . .people had such twisted taste. . .so i answered her question, i asked her name and school. . .i forgot her name and she studies somewhere in caloocan . . .so i was like whoa, that was a first, and the guy wasnt half bad, he was cute. . . hehe

wala lang. . . hehehe. . . *falls asleep while typing. . .mumbles bye* bye

puppy

2006-06-26T22:43:00.000-07:00

yeay, my mum is allowing me to adopt a puppy. . . see we have this booth thingy in school where you can adopt cats and dogs, pay 1000 for the papers and shots. . . then you gat a puppy... unfortunatly, its still not certain coz theres this interview crap, and i still have to go to the rehab pet center to choose which puppy i really like! but still im happy hehehehe!!!!!!!!!!!!

la lang yun lang . . . and my mums applying for work again . . . yeah so im happy and shes happy, everybody is happy *bounces up in down weirdly* *hyper* *drool* * hyper*